Im thankful for alot of things. Thankful for the things that I do have and Thankful for another day. Kris and I went to Live oak, Fl to spend thanksgiving with his dad & family. I love it out there. So peaceful. Actually even woke up this morning and went black friday shopping with my cousin who needed to shop for her 4 kids. Never will I do that again. It is crazy out there. lol
Im trying to decide if I should put up the tree or not. Im really not in the mood this year. In all my years on this earth, I would have to say this year has been the worst. Im so sick of feeling so down, but its hard. I went to church to repent of my sins and ask God for forgiveness and cried and cried last sunday. Really looking for a good church but havent found one that really speaks to me. I dont want to go to a church that makes you feel like your a horrible person, I want to go to an uplifting church that is like JOEL OSTEEN on tv.
Im hoping and praying things get better. I have faith but when bad news just constantly comes our way it gets old. I just wish I knew why kris still doesnt feel good and why it never gets easier... Giving up isnt an option, but omg this is rough. Wishing I was like some woman who face things head on and make it into a positive situation. Everyone says im strong, but im not at all. Im tired of seeing my husband miserable, Im tired of seeing him depressed when I know that isnt like him at all, Im tired of hearing bad news, Im tired of the expensive medicine, But knowing it could be so much worse makes me appreciate THE STORM we are going through right now. Really praying hard these days for strength..
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