Results yet again

Endocrinologist called, the results came back Kris didnt have Klinefelters. YAYYY....BUT.... said he is 80 percent sure he DOES and they might have missed it. OMG!!!!! He says this because he has already done every test known to do and everything has came back negative, So Kris said we will do another blood/karotype test to see for sure. I mean its always something, it cant ever be a FOR sure answer. Still the Doctor is saying that we could pass it on to children. At this moment to help Kris feel better, he is getting on Testosterone shots. That will kill any sperm he has, but if he already doesnt have any... What will it hurt, PLUS I want my husband to FEEL better. We do have a Dr appt with a new Fertility Dr on july 19th. Im so excited because I've heard alot of good things about this doctor. Kris still isnt taking this well, Im suprisingly optimistic for some reason. WE shall see. Im really hoping things start looking up. :)

Wonder what the Future holds

We are still waiting on the Bloodwork to see if Kris has klinefelters or not. Either way its bad news, If it is Klinefelters, yes we have FINALLY figured out what is wrong, on the other hand... biological children really wont be a realistic thing, and Kris will never be 100 percent better as far as health wise. On the good side, we will be able to move forward with getting kris on Testosterone shots and we can move forward with starting a family, what ever it takes.. If it comes back that its NOT Klinefelters, then we will move forward and go to MAYO and start the process all over again..... So either way its not good in our eyes. Its so hard to WAIT. seems like thats all we do. Its depressing. We both are on this emotional rollercoaster. Its very hard to deal with. I was in the grocery store today and saw a woman loving on her little baby, it made me smile and tear up at the same time. I wondered if she had trouble having that baby and if that was her miracle child. I suddenly felt very lonely and ready to go home. This happends alot. When will I feel ok. When will I accept this. We have talked to the Doctor and feel its a good idea to see a councelor. That will help with our emotions and help with how we are coping. Im actually kind of excited. I need someone to talk to....