Blog Questionare :)

1) Which season is your favorite?
I love Fall. When the weather is cool but still a little warm, when you can drive with all your windows rolled down and blast the radio and sing out loud ( ok that is just what i do every fall since ive had my drivers license) But I do love winter too because of Christmas time. I love the smells and the love and the lights. So many memories

2) What is your dream car?
Infinity FX35.... It can be a reality, there not that expensive but I really like my Trailblazer that will be paid off soon. Cars arent a big thing to me, why pay so much for something just because you want to be cool because you have it, You cant take it with you when you die. Enjoy your money on other things

3) What is the last book you read?
How to use your own personality to love god and your husband

4) What is your favorite weekend activity?
Sleeping in, being Lazy, Spending time with family. Enjoying a good lifetime movie.
Doing absolutely NOTHING

5) If you could only save 1 pair of shoes from your closet, which would you choose?
Sandals. Im not a big shoe person.


6) What do you do for a living?
Im a Radiologic Technologist, but I am unemployed right now, and I actually enjoy it. Ive finally been able to spend time with my family.

7) What is your best memory from high school or college?
My Friends, we had a pretty Tight Clique and we still keep in touch. I had so many crazy fun memories in highschool, even always being on restriction lol

8) What was your first job?
Babysitting 9th grade. But then when i was 16 i got a job at hungry howies pizza and my dad made me quit. He didnt want me working while i went to school. He wanted me to concentrate on school.

1st Fertility appointment

So it was nice meeting Dr Winslow. He was nice and OMG his office was amazing, he has a view of all of downtown jacksonville. 9th floor. It was pretty. Luckly Kris and him had something in common. They both LOVE the gators. yay, thats a start. Haha
Anyways So Kris had some blood work done, we had our picture taken for our file, and Dr winslow is going to start Kris on HCG shots. Im so so excited about this. He also has to stop androgel immediatly, double yay! no more killing my sperm. Hopefully these HCG shots will boost his testosterone and make him feel SO much better, and also increase his sperm. He has to do a sperm analysis done on friday morning and we also have to go in for them to teach me how to give him his shots. The first sperm analysis may not be great, but i cant wait for the 2nd one in a few months, Thats when we will be able to tell if it has helped. This isnt going to be a quick process, but im so exciting to get it started and EXPECIALLY get kris back to feeling normal. Yay yay yay...


So who watched the TLC show: Sister wives
OMG i know its not what i believe, But I seriously Love the show already. Alot of people think its not necessary, and not godly, But I dont judge and that show is full of Love, They love there kids. Just like 19 kids and Counting, they have the best parenting skills and have so much patience with there kids. People think there weird and they dont need to have that many kids, but again its no ones place to judge. People may not like it and thats fine, but you dont have to watch it, I actually enjoy watching shows full of love. Are you judging me for my opinion on this? lol

Scared to go

So Our First Fertility Dr visit is this tuesday. Im scared. I think Kris is too, but he says he isnt. I dont know what to expect, Im scared of what they will say. Will it be positive news, or will it be news that will crush us. I am glad we are moving ahead with this, but so freaking scared. Kris wanted wendys tonight, So it was a good chance for me to get out of the house and Cry. and yes I cried all the way there. I called my mom and she gave me the "faith" talk, which she is right and she told me what I needed to hear, instead of what i wanted to hear ...hmmm i guess thats where i get that from. But she said i need to give it all to God. She said I need to know God has my back and has a plan. Im a worrier and its so hard not to worry, and I now believe in stress eating, Ive gained weight in the last two years, stressed out with school, work , bills and more than ever, now about kris's health and our infertility scare. Ive always heard about it and didnt understand why people blame there problems on eating, but its true, it really is comforting, of course its not so comforting when i look in the mirror anymore but ill get there. Im just a hot mess right now. I met a few girls online who are going through this too, with male infertility and im glad to know im not alone, but i hate that they have to feel like we do. Im hoping and praying for them and also for our trip to the doctor on tuesday. Im hopeful and I have faith. Kris doesnt deserve this, he is a good man, a good person. We got married, i just graduated, we did right, it just seems so unfair, but then when i think that way, I always feel selfish, like it could be so much worse. So I try not to look at it as WHY kris.

I just wish there was a crystal ball that can show me the future, just for a split second to show us with a family. Thats all Ive ever wanted. I even had a dream the other night I delivered a baby boy and took him home, and was so mad because no one took hospital pictures. lol Funny but it was such a real dream.

Alot on my mind

This weekend was fun, Had My friends Bachelorette party at Jacksonville beach. I had a good time and had lots of laughs...and of course everyone knows Im a goofball but never though I could have so much fun at a club being sober, but im just as dorky sober as I am when I drink which is good to know and alot cheaper :) I also watched my 90 year old aunt again this weekend at her house. Which even though I enjoy her and her company and love hearing her stories, I couldnt wait to get home to see Kristopher. Its like we went through two whole years of school and work, hardly getting any time together, and now im graduated and nothings changed. Although it does give a good excuse to hurry home on mondays and see him and hug and kiss him and know ive got all night on the couch with him. We just got done watching all of our shows tonight. I love laying on the couch with him and Daisy. Its probably the most peaceful time I get. I cant wait to get a normal job and enjoy more time with Kris. Our Dr appt is in a week and Im so excited.

SOMETHING ON MY MIND: Its hard to find a good friendship these days. I have a small handful of AMAZING friends and know who will always have my back. People these days dont cherish friendships and think its all about them, Or only need you when its convienent for them. As a wise woman told me, Those are not FRIENDS. Sometimes I do let people run all over me, Sometimes I do give in to make other people happy, But when do you SAY "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH" I feel like you can only take so much of being stepped on. Do people ever think about how they are treating others or how others might be feeling about a situation. I think all the time, how the joke I said might have offended someone or how did I come across to my friend when she asked for advice. I think if more people put there selves in someone elses shoes, the world would be a better place... And OMG the negativity I see around me, WOW! I see so many people complain about EVERYTHING. and Im at fault too, but look around, You have it good, There are people that have it ALOT worse than you do.
My 90 year old aunt who is the sweetest lady ive ever known, was watching a Show and she saw a overweight man and started Saying how fat he is and how he should never let him get that way, It kind of startled me Because I didnt think she had a negative streak in her body. The reason it bothered me, was because Kris has gained weight and I think about how many people may look at him and think the same thing, but they have no Clue that He has a problem with his health, and no matter what diet or exercise he does until he gets the correct medicine he wont lose weight. So how do we know that man on the TV didnt have a health problem. I know its so easy to Judge, but it puts a whole new Prospective on things when you have walked in someones shoes. It makes you Think!
I was stuck in traffic today for an hour, DEAD stop traffic, I was so pissed, because I couldnt wait to get home.. But when I Passed the Truck that was upside down and I learned the Driver Died in that crash, I felt so bad for being impatient, here I was alive, On my way to my HOME to see my HUSBAND and and that Family was dealing with such bad news. Its the little things, but those things matter.

STORY OF THE DAY : A girl walked in to my Stepmoms office at work and saw a picture of me, and got tears in her eyes and asked my stepmom if that was LAUREN... My step mom said yes, and handed her a Tissue, and the girl said, "you dont understand... lauren was the only person in highschool that accepted me and make me feel normal" and she told her a story at prom where I made her feel special. Let me tell you when my stepmom told me that, It melted my heart, In highschool I was friends with everyone, I didnt care what clothes you wore, or what color you were or what clique you were with, I talked to everyone... My mom always taught me that those things dont matter. I was not an Angel by any means, but I had a big heart.
Dont get me wrong i dont want to sound like a hypocrite, I do like poking fun or immitating people, but its usually to there face as a joke, because I love making people laugh.

im on a roll tonight!!! Ive got to get this shit out of my head! It may not be good reading material but its my thoughts.... :)

IVE GOT SUNSHINE......

First things first, I scheduled the appointment for the fertility doctor.. cant beleive how EXPENSIVE the copay is, but one step closer to helping kris feel better and one step closer to making a family.
Still havent found a job but i do have some prospects and will have something in no time :)!
my aunt jerri is 90 yrs old and lives at jacksonville beach and well im going to be her live in nurse on the weekends to help her out and to get some money flowing so i can pay bills. Plus I love her so much and i love when she talks about my uncle chris and how they met, i never get old listening to her stories from the old days.
Besides looking for s a job, i have no clue what to do with myself. Its been nice having ME time, and cleaning the house and getting organized.

Cant wait for the winter

http://www.thepreserveresort.com/cabin.asp?property_id=1185

Kris and I have always wanted to go here for the winter to see snow, And i think im going to save up money and suprise kris with a getaway to this place. There cabins are so nice and it would be fun to get out of jacksonville for a few days during christmas time. Maybe even have a few couples go with us.

I cant wait for it to cool down, and for fall to come, I love that time when its cool enough to roll down the windows in your car and smell the fall coming. but even more wonderful is christmas time. I love the smell and the memories of christmas. It has got to be the greatest time of year. Plus this year im hoping santa brings us a little one in my belly :)

Lauren Sorrells R.T. (R)

Graduation is OVER and I took my registry.....and PASSED! woohoo. It was the scariest test of my life. I was so calm the night before. I prayed and knew i would be ok. My classmates Ashley and Kandis spent the night with me that night, so in the morning of our test i walked into the spare bedroom to see there faces and i got tears in my eyes i was so nervous. I wanted to throw up! All four of us who took the test that day passed thank god! we have three hours to take it, I was done in an hour and 45 minutes but sat there going over the 220 questions over and over, and waited until 6 minutes to go to hit the submit button, I cant turn back now.... it was the scariest 4 seconds of my life waiting for the computer to configure my score.
I just knew it was going to be a 68 staring at me.... oh but i was wrong....because i PASSED! No more studying, NO more school for now, No more stressing..... Finally one more thing in my life out of the way. Now to get a job and concentrate fully on getting pregnant. Im so excited! Another milestone i thought would never get here..

My birthday came and went, IM 26. Seems like the years have passed me by.
Cant wait to see whats ahead!!!!