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Been a while since I Posted anything, School is still awesome, work still exhausts me, and still counting down the days till graduation. I cant wait to be done. I am so sick of working for free. I love what i do, but just ready to embark on my career. Also have been doing alot of soul searching, and realizing how i need to just not let things get to me as much. ive been trying to find myself a little more each day and try to figure out the people in my life who are real and the ones who arent. Ones who love me for who i am and the ones who are there just because its convienent. I just want honest, trustworthy, caring friends. How is that so hard. Why is that so hard? Also trying to realize the past is the past and i know people make mistakes, although its hard to forget, I am trying to forgive. One day i want to be a friend, the next day, i dont. Im so torn and Just need to pray about it. Kristopher, still through this school journey has been so supportive, yes a few butthole days along the way lol but he is wonderful, He has pushed me in everyway and Soon we will be ready to have babies and I just cant wait!