DEAR SANTA

Please bring me a nice Positive pregnancy test! Im not asking for a new expensive watch that I will wear twice and then lose, im not asking for a closet full of new clothes (which I really need) Im not even asking for a new SUV that i so desperatly want.... I just would like one FREAKING Sperm to fertilize my egg. I think Ive been pretty good this year considering all the shit that has happend. Ive dealt with everyone around me getting pregnant and even showed excitment for them.... even though that can be hard to do expecially for the ones who dont deserve it AT ALL, Ive watched my husbands awesome,funny energetic personality die right there on the living room floor because he has no testosterone... Ive dealt with an immature stupid brat who lied so I wouldnt get the job I wanted more than anything.. Ive had to deal with a family who has never dealt with infertility and really needs to take a class on GIVING A SHIT. Ive dealt with people saying " it will happen" just relax" Dont think about it" and NOT once did I cuss them out! Ive watched my husband go through hell and back, poking himself with needles full of medication for the last 3 months, going back and forth to the Dr, Only to hear that he needs to go on even more expensive medication... REALLY SANTA can we catch a break??? We have been through a rough year, and All I can say is.... IM OVER IT! 2010 YOU SUCK. yes Im glad to be alive and that nothing truly tragic has happend, Im blessed for being healthy and having great people that are hear for us, Im thankful for alot in my life.. But this year really left me bitter. yay I graduated, one thing GOOD out of 2010.. Oh but wait I cant even find a F-ing Full time job so Nope... not that either.
Just one Miracle Santa.. Ill never ask for a single thing again. Please!