Alot on my mind

This weekend was fun, Had My friends Bachelorette party at Jacksonville beach. I had a good time and had lots of laughs...and of course everyone knows Im a goofball but never though I could have so much fun at a club being sober, but im just as dorky sober as I am when I drink which is good to know and alot cheaper :) I also watched my 90 year old aunt again this weekend at her house. Which even though I enjoy her and her company and love hearing her stories, I couldnt wait to get home to see Kristopher. Its like we went through two whole years of school and work, hardly getting any time together, and now im graduated and nothings changed. Although it does give a good excuse to hurry home on mondays and see him and hug and kiss him and know ive got all night on the couch with him. We just got done watching all of our shows tonight. I love laying on the couch with him and Daisy. Its probably the most peaceful time I get. I cant wait to get a normal job and enjoy more time with Kris. Our Dr appt is in a week and Im so excited.

SOMETHING ON MY MIND: Its hard to find a good friendship these days. I have a small handful of AMAZING friends and know who will always have my back. People these days dont cherish friendships and think its all about them, Or only need you when its convienent for them. As a wise woman told me, Those are not FRIENDS. Sometimes I do let people run all over me, Sometimes I do give in to make other people happy, But when do you SAY "ENOUGH IS ENOUGH" I feel like you can only take so much of being stepped on. Do people ever think about how they are treating others or how others might be feeling about a situation. I think all the time, how the joke I said might have offended someone or how did I come across to my friend when she asked for advice. I think if more people put there selves in someone elses shoes, the world would be a better place... And OMG the negativity I see around me, WOW! I see so many people complain about EVERYTHING. and Im at fault too, but look around, You have it good, There are people that have it ALOT worse than you do.
My 90 year old aunt who is the sweetest lady ive ever known, was watching a Show and she saw a overweight man and started Saying how fat he is and how he should never let him get that way, It kind of startled me Because I didnt think she had a negative streak in her body. The reason it bothered me, was because Kris has gained weight and I think about how many people may look at him and think the same thing, but they have no Clue that He has a problem with his health, and no matter what diet or exercise he does until he gets the correct medicine he wont lose weight. So how do we know that man on the TV didnt have a health problem. I know its so easy to Judge, but it puts a whole new Prospective on things when you have walked in someones shoes. It makes you Think!
I was stuck in traffic today for an hour, DEAD stop traffic, I was so pissed, because I couldnt wait to get home.. But when I Passed the Truck that was upside down and I learned the Driver Died in that crash, I felt so bad for being impatient, here I was alive, On my way to my HOME to see my HUSBAND and and that Family was dealing with such bad news. Its the little things, but those things matter.

STORY OF THE DAY : A girl walked in to my Stepmoms office at work and saw a picture of me, and got tears in her eyes and asked my stepmom if that was LAUREN... My step mom said yes, and handed her a Tissue, and the girl said, "you dont understand... lauren was the only person in highschool that accepted me and make me feel normal" and she told her a story at prom where I made her feel special. Let me tell you when my stepmom told me that, It melted my heart, In highschool I was friends with everyone, I didnt care what clothes you wore, or what color you were or what clique you were with, I talked to everyone... My mom always taught me that those things dont matter. I was not an Angel by any means, but I had a big heart.
Dont get me wrong i dont want to sound like a hypocrite, I do like poking fun or immitating people, but its usually to there face as a joke, because I love making people laugh.

im on a roll tonight!!! Ive got to get this shit out of my head! It may not be good reading material but its my thoughts.... :)