Slowly but surely im learning patience. Slowly but REAL slowly i am learning not to care what people think. I finally realized you cant please everyone. When you think your a good friend to one, another may think your turning your back.. so never can you be a good person in everyones eyes. Really pisses me off, but as long as i know im true to myself and to others..thats all i can do. Sometimes when i hear things thats hurts me,or that people were talking about me or mad at me. I cant stop thinking about it, i will get so mad and just vent about it and it boils in my mind for days.... FINALLY have i realized... i shouldnt care what people think. I know who i am and thats all that matters. A good friend told me you just have to brush it off, and well thats what im doing from now on. Im very sensitive and take everything to heart, but im going to try really hard to build up a wall when it comes to my feelings. Its ok people dont like me, its ok they want to talk about me or say stuff behind my back, or lie to make themselves feel and look better, because those people know in the back of there mind, who they are and what there doing. Karma... well its a....... well you know! and i believe anything you do good or bad to someone, always comes back... :) Also my other learning experience...dont trust anyone. Its really hard to know weither you can trust someone or not, well... just dont. i dont know how many times i have told someone something out of trust, and heard they told others. Its just another life lesson my grandma taught me, but i never listened till now.
So time is ticking and graduation is right around the corner, time to whip in shape and get ready for the registry and job hunting. I am very very excited but nervous about this experience. This year has alot in store for me, and im very very ready for whats ahead. I have grown so much and have learned alot with school and just lifes lessons and really have matured. These two years were hell but im glad i went through with it. So glad i do have close friends by my side and my husband who is always there.
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